But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you. - James Blunt

Thank you for the break tomorow. Although it could have been better if the holiday falls on a Friday but it's always better than nothing.
May has been more of a bad month than good and I wish all nasty things ends here. (Yea..I WISH!)

Have I been anticipating someone's return? I admit I did but now...I am just worried. Worried that a second wave will hit the shore. I am not a strong person. I am most vulnerable if you put my buried emotions to test.

Often I forget what I had chosen to "give up" between me and Jason. I guess I have no 100% right to wish/want what a girlfriend needs from a boyfriend.
That little distance I often feel between us lately gives me a sense of protection and too a sense of insecurity, a sense of self deserving and a sense of helplessness.

But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you. - James Blunt

Humans are such contradicting beings. We often trap ourselves in the tension of opposites, in beween wants and needs, rights and wrongs, thoughts and emotions.

I have been dragging alot.
Since I made a decision then, I will stick to it. Comes what May? It's really not up to our control, not what's written in the stars.

Tomorrow. I hope you spend a nice date with me.